1883

女主的临终戏是我最有感触的一场临终戏，她的父亲是她死亡唯一的见证人，我和他一起流泪、痛苦、抽泣，好像也失去了一个很爱的人。

她的死亡没有撕心裂肺的哭喊、没有歇斯底里的愤怒，悲伤和钝痛像寒冬阴冷的湿气，不知不觉中慢慢渗到心里去。

临死前父亲带着她离开队伍走了很远，寻找一个她喜欢的埋葬地，他们在那里轻轻地说了很久的话，久到让人忘记了死亡。

万物都终将面临死亡，可谁都不知道它是什么样。

生与死本就是一个莫比乌斯环，当人身体上无限逼近死亡的时候，心理上也会无比渴望返回生命的起点。

父亲抱着她靠在大树下，两人谈论起自己人生最初的记忆，我也想起了我记忆中最久远的画面，那是一个立冬的早晨，妈妈带着我在洗手台前洗漱，我透过纱窗望向窗外，室外下过雨，电线上挂着水珠，上面或许站着一两只麻雀，或许我只是听到了麻雀沾了水似的湿润的啼叫。

我问妈妈什么是立冬，妈妈说就是冬天的第一天。

很巧的是女主的记忆中也有几只小鸟，她觉得它们好聪明啊，懂得在被雨水松动过的土壤里找虫子吃。

她说她想明白了，知道死亡是什么了，一点也不怕了，眼中渐渐失去了神采。

我喜欢这场戏可能是因为它耐心地呈现了生命自然死亡的过程，非常符合逻辑也非常符合人性。

从箭伤恶化开始，所有知情人都心照不宣地为女主编织出一个善意的小世界，友好地、潇洒地道别。

没有粉饰，也不谈悲伤，这场旅程教会所有人的，就是顺应生命本身的规律，拥抱它，让一切自然发生。

没有看过黄石，却被这一部1883给震撼到了，甚至为此去了解了一下美国历史的西进运动。

身为观众，感觉跟着达顿一家一起走了这一遭。

这是什么样的旅途啊，以天为席地为庐，波澜壮阔，有一种令人沉浸的残酷浪漫。

如果不是实在活不下去，他们又怎会踏上这样的旅途。

他们渴望自由，渴望新生，可能多多少少早已做好了死亡的准备。

就像最后黑人老哥的女友说的，这是他们身为自由人的选择，如果因此他们会死去，那么就让他们死去。

一路的披荆斩棘，让死亡仿佛都变成了麻木。

没想到Elsa会做出这样的选择，会选择永远留在这一片土地上。

可能俗世的束缚对她来说已经不能再忍耐哪怕一天。

这样广阔的天地美景，可以穿着牛仔装骑马驰骋，可以爱她所爱恨她所恨的，才真的是活着。

Captain简直是哲学家，有两段话我特别感动。

第一段是安慰男友丧生的Elsa，他说，你心爱的人一部分会跟你活在一起。

他们会看到你看到的世界，感受你的感受。

所以你要好好跟他们一起活下去。

我瞬间想到泰坦尼克号。

小时候的我并不能理解为什么Rose在失去Jack后还能独自结婚生子，过如此精彩的一生。

现在我懂了。

因为只有你还记得他，所以你要活着，连同他的那一份更精彩地活着。

另一段是安慰达顿的话。

他说我已经70多岁了，但你女儿比我爱的更浓烈，感受的自由更强烈。

她活的很好。

如果不得不失去，那至少曾经拥有过最美好的回忆。

看到评论里很多人诟病Elsa的多情，自我，甚至矫情等等。

大可不必。

在那样的环境下，要有怎样的思想和胆识，才能过的如Elsa这样潇洒率性。

她最终选择了自己的spot，葬身在她最爱的土地上。

虽然Sam已经等不回他的妻子。

要怎样才能不负此生。

年轻的女主角 Elsa 痛失刚刚认识并热恋的男孩 Ennis，悲痛欲绝，甚至想自杀。

饱经沧桑的老牛仔 Shea 安慰 Elsa 说道： I know how you feel. A lot of people are gonna tell you that. Whether it's the truth or not, I don't know. But I know it's true when I say it. I have sat right where you're sitting, thinking the same thing. Thinking I don't want to live without them. Don't see the point. Still do most days. But here I am … living without them. Why? Well … My reasons'd be different than yours. I don't have anyone left who loves me. You do. I'll tell you a secret. I'll tell you why I'm still sucking air today. I'm headed to the ocean. An Apache scout told me once … that when you love somebody, you trade souls with them. They get a piece of yours, and you get a piece of theirs. But when your love dies … A little piece of you dies with them. That's why you hurt so bad. But that little piece of him is still inside you. And he can use your eyes to see the world. So … I'm taking my wife to the ocean … And I'm gonna sit on the beach, and let her see it. That was her dream. Then I'm going to see her. That's my dream.

从《赴汤蹈火》《猎杀风河谷》《边境杀手》到剧集《黄石》，《1883》对谢里丹来说应该是得心应手之作，无论编剧，还是演员挑选的确有他自己的厉害之处。

艾尔莎的扮演者的确给人惊喜，年纪轻轻能有这么好演技，也是难得好的剧本和导演。

Faith和Tim这对民谣天王天后跨界出演，更是给人不少惊喜，尤其是Tim的硬汉形象。

想起上学时候听过一首Faith的《Breath》和这部剧似乎有点应景。

还有饰演谢伊的老戏骨Sam,高龄出演，不失壮年时的牛仔风姿。

这部剧已艾尔莎这样小姑娘的视觉来推进西部拓荒的剧情，每一集都贯穿着未知和悲伤，生命在大自然中草芥一般，同类之间的厮杀也大都是抽支烟的功夫。

在文明还未眷顾的荒野，人既扮演着上帝又扮演着魔鬼。

导演没有把故事讲到谁对谁错，只是摊开画面让你看见历史中的残酷和悲伤，以及那么一点点温存。

好剧不续，难得谢里丹再这么高产的时候还能出如此精品。

盗用主页的截图

一路向北，西部每一寸土地，目之所及都矗立着梦想与传奇...来自欧洲的移民逃离被称作故乡的地狱，到达传说中的自由国度，在这片处女地里重新确立归途，听闻归途是自由，是天堂，是让一切重生的希望，缥缈的指引，使向前的每一步都充满犹豫却又愈加坚定，每一个足迹都足以在这群朝圣者心中烙下印痕。

自由的实然不是无菌的空气，不是清澈的涓滴，不是无忧的乐土，是毒蛇，是风暴，是荒蛮，是劫掠，是拥抱新生，是直面死亡，是要明辨哪些人终将因恐惧而酿成悲剧，被黄沙埋没和遗忘，从而远离，是知晓自己灵魂的一部分曾随谁而死去，又因携带谁的灵魂从而直面恐惧，无所畏惧...曲终人散，终究没人去到梦想中的俄勒冈，那些执着去向俄勒冈的人也终化为路边的一座枯坟，一具野尸，但却有人遇见了天堂:那不是我们幻想的地方，而是那个与梦想中的一切交融只有一息之长的现实——是警长带着亡妻灵魂看过的海边，是父亲陪伴临终的爱女最终下葬的蒙大拿，是爱女成人后义无反顾、用心爱过的科曼奇小伙与他的领地，是印第安人与达顿家族立下世交，七代人生生不息共同维护着的保留区..."it is paradise, not heaven."《黄石》中约翰达顿为何用生命去守护他的农场，白人领地与印第安矛盾重重却为何在外部势力来袭时能共御外辱，《1883》作为前传，从生与死的视角发掘出了这份誓言的力量，约翰达顿常说,"i made a promise,it matters."对于死亡，人们最害怕的是遗忘，精神不死，被记住的人将给予后世克服恐惧的勇气与力量，以赐福于他在那旷达的西部荒野，感受他的大地，想象他的蓝天，做一个孤独的牛仔，独立书写一篇仅属于个人的佳篇，无所拘束，拥抱自由，向死而生。

When you love somebody, you trade souls with them. They get a piece of yours, and you get a piece of theirs. But when your love dies,a little piece of you dies with them. That’s why you hurt so bad. But that little piece of him is still inside you, and he can use your eyes to see the world. So… I’m taking my wife to the ocean. And I’m gonna sit on the beach, and let her see it. That was her dream. Then I’m going to see her. That’s my dream.

约翰-达顿在美丽的天堂谷最后一次捧着长子Lee时，靠着一棵大树。

一个多世纪以前，另一位达顿的男性家长詹姆斯-达顿用同一种方式，几乎在同一个地点，送走了自己的长女Elsa Dutton。

Lee和Elsa各自的死亡有诸多不同的因素。

但毫无疑问，有一点是相同的：约翰和詹姆斯都不仅仅失去了孩子，也失去了对这个孩子继承自己传奇的寄托。

Lee和Elsa都是为了各自父亲的梦想而死。

Elsa为家族的未来选择了栖居之地；约翰-达顿则因为Lee的死而更加坚决地维护家族利益。

两人的死都使自己的家族作为整体更为强大。

第二集惊现汤姆-汉克斯，他扮演George Meade，历史上确有其人。

乔治-戈登-米德，美国陆军少将，曾参加过第二次塞米诺尔战争、美墨战争和美国南北战争。

米德最著名的战役是1863年在葛底斯堡战役中指挥联邦军波托马克军团击败联盟军罗伯特-E-李将军率领的北弗吉尼亚军团。

美国陆军基地乔治·G·米德堡、堪萨斯州米德县和南达科他州米德县都是以乔治·米德的名字命名的。

Tom Hanks和他的妻子Rita Wilson，与《1883》的两位主演Tim McGraw和Faith Hill是多年好友。

Tim McGraw和Faith Hill分别扮演詹姆斯-达顿和玛格丽特-达顿，现实生活中就是夫妻。

汤姆-汉克斯的米德将军在Battle of Antietam战役后向詹姆斯-达顿表达了善意。

第九集Elsa的命运锁定。

拉科塔（Lakota）部落的首领，由Tokala Black Elk扮演，他在《黄石》中出演四集，是凯西和莫尼卡在保留地的邻居Sam Stands Alone。

《1883》第一集的站街女，既是《黄石》中的女律师，也是泰勒-谢里丹另一作品《金斯顿市长》的秘书。

第十集的印第安酋长由Graham Greene扮演，他在这里的名字“Spotted Eagle”与当年《与狼共舞》里的Kicking Bird，对仗挺公整，动词+鸟。

《与狼共舞》（Dances with Wolves）1990年电影，描述1860年代美国南北战争末期，北军中尉邓巴与印地安苏族的故事，电影的对白多使用苏族语言拉科塔语，配以英语字幕，这在当时的美国电影圈很罕见。

本片获得七座奥斯卡金像奖，票房也大获成功，象征着西部片在好莱坞的复兴。

2007年，此片因为它“文化上、历史上、美学上”的重要价值，被选为美国国家电影保护局典藏。

Graham Greene因为《与狼共舞》这部影片获63届奥斯卡最佳男配角的提名，输给了《好家伙》里的乔-佩西；不过凯文-科斯特纳也没得最佳男主奖，倒是得了最佳导演和最佳影片。

因为这部电影的巨大成功和所表达的对原住民的深切同情，凯文-科斯特纳被接纳成为拉科塔族（Lakota）荣誉成员。

在听说《与狼共舞》要用拉科塔语说台词时，Graham Greene的第一反应是“I don't speak that”。

Graham Greene还在《猎凶风河谷》里演原住民保留地的警长Ben。

也是泰勒-谢里丹的作品。

正如警长Shea Brennan所说，Elsa比谁活得都明白，他75了而她只有18岁，她却笑得比他欢快、爱得比他恣意、战斗得比他更勇敢。

也许每个人从出生那刻就开启了奥德赛之旅，而Elsa的旅途更为壮阔，更为自由，爱过，心碎过，受过伤再努力站起来，清楚地知道自己的向往。

她的旁白就像她为这次旅途写下的诗句，残酷贫瘠的生活里长出浪漫的翅膀。

Season 1, Episode 1: “1883”开场就是第九集的地狱景象。

I remember the first time I saw it. Tried to find words to describe it. But I couldn’t. Nothing had prepared me. No books. No teachers. Not even my parents. I heard a thousand stories… But none could describe this place. It must be witness to be understood. And yet, I’ve seen it. And I understand it less than when I first cast eyes on this place.Some called it the American Desert. Others, the Great Plains. But those phrases were invented by professors at universities. Surrounded by the illusion of order. And the fantasy of right and wrong. To know it, you must walk. Bleed until it’s dark. Drown in its rivers. Then its name becomes clear. It is Hell. And there are demons everywhere.But if this is Hell, then I must be a demon, too. And I’m already dead.Elsa总结了父亲詹姆斯-达顿的梦想：The road West is filled with failures. But failure isn’t what drove him. It was a dream. And the dream was coming true.Season 1, Episode 2: “Behind Us, A Cliff”Freedom is running wild through untamed land.年轻的姑娘憧憬着前方的土地。

The world here plays parlor tricks on your senses. I do not know what the word Texas means. But to me it means magic.It seems even the trees are new to this place; scattered about in clusters like little villages. And everywhere: treasures. Everywhere a bounty just waiting to be scooped up.”18-years ago on this day, Lee surrendered to Grant in the home of Wilmer McClean in the village of Appomattox. A year later, I was born. It was Monday, April 9, 1883. And it was my birthday.I looked to the right and saw my father somehow riding vertically towards the earth. Beyond him, cowboys and cattle pushed towards us; dust following them like a cloudy shadow. The light was soft and pale and pink, like God had decided to light this day with candles. And the whole of Texas spread out before me. It was the most magnificent thing I had ever seen.最后Elsa思考时间的变幻。

What began as a journey had become a retreat into the unknown. We were backing into the abyss; so worried our sins would follow us we didn’t bother watching where we walked. And behind us was a cliff.Season 1, Episode 3: “River”从第三集开始，Elsa目睹了西扩途中的恐怖，她的旁白也变得暗黑起来。

Death is everywhere on the prairie. In every form you can imagine. And a few your worst nightmare couldn’t muster.Death hides in creek beds. Possesses animals. It hides in tall grass, waiting. With every death, our father moved camp a little further away. As if death was not the result of accidents and disease, but death was its own disease. And carelessness was contagious.”But of all the perils awaiting us – sickness and snakes, bad horses and bandits – there was one thing above all that sent terror through both man and beast… There was one word so feared it was barely spoken and barely whispered… River.粗粝之中也有片刻宁静，Elsa看着母亲放牧，第一次视她为女人，而不仅仅是个母亲。

I watched her ride and I didn’t see my mother. I saw a woman. And the woman was magnificent.Season 1, Episode 4: “The Crossing”I knew that war. That war between what you should become, and what you could become.随着剧集进展，Elsa的旁白也渐渐成熟。

第四集她站在由女孩向女人进化的边缘，第五集将完成转变。

I had abandoned every memory of Tennessee as if I was born on this journey. But I wasn’t. We were leaving a place, and seeking another. And the journey was a necessary, miserable road between the two. Somehow I felt immune to the dangers of this place. As if the land and I had struck a deal. I could pass on heart so long as I loved it. And I did. I loved everything about it.目睹了种种死亡之后，Elsa平静地讲述了人与自然关系的真相。

But crossing the Brazos taught me there was no deal. No matter how much we love it, the land will never love us back.Season 1, Episode 5: “The Fangs of Freedom”We are in the land of no mercy now.到第五集结尾，Elsa Dutton已经是一个完全不同的人了。

她成为一个女人，一个被1883残酷现实带来的心碎所改变的人。

Elsa从一个古灵精怪、充满希望的孩童，变成了坚毅警觉的女人。

I think cities have weakened us as a species. There are no consequences there. Step into the streets without looking and the carriage merely stops or swerves; the only consequence an angry driver. But here? There can be no mistakes. Because here doesn’t care. The river doesn’t care if you can swim. The snake doesn’t care how much you love your children. And the wolf has no interest in your dreams. If you fail to beat the current, you will drown; if you get too close, you will be bitten. If you are too weak, you will be eaten.Elsa与Ennis合为一体，然而命运自有别的安排。

The whole world faded away. No stars or moon, no sky at all. No earth between my feet; no rock against my back. There was only us.Today My Eyes Died.I’d known death since I was a child. It’s everywhere. But it had never touched me. It had never placed it rotten finger on my heart. Until today. Today my eyes died. I see the world through my mother’s eyes now. Yes, freedom has fangs. And it sunk them in me. I chose to love him. He chose to love me back. Then chose to protect me. Then a man we’ve never met chose to kill him. And made me colorblind.Maybe killing this man will get my eyes back. Maybe it won’t. But I chose to find out.余下的旅途在Elsa平静的旁白中展开。

Season 1, Episode 6, “Boring the Devil”Elsa毫不掩饰她的心碎，同时迎来新的经历。

We moved towards Dome’s Crossing and the Red River, and tragedy’s next opportunity to ravage what’s left of us. My mother says the pain will fade and the good memories return. I suppose that’s true. Every person on this planet will endure this pain, until they are the cause of it for another. Someday I’ll die and shatter hearts, too. But that is not today. Today I am living. And I am a shadow.第六集结尾，Elsa再次敞开心扉。

年轻的心容易痊愈。

We were leaving Texas, entering the Indian territory and redefining our meaning of unknown. Far from the cities that have paved the world away, and the farms which had turned it into a resource. We were no longer under the cloud of civilization. Only sky above us now. No more walking over bridges. Out here, we swim horseback through rivers. There is nowhere to chain love to vows and ceremony. Out here, love burns through you like a fever. And when the devil comes to strip that love from you, there is no funeral or song or speeches that dull our senses and deaden our hearts. Out here, you turn towards the pain as it tears into you. And you let it. When you do, the devil gets bored. He sees another soul to eat.And you get to live again.——重新定义未知，再活一次。

Season 1, Episode 7, “Lightning Yellow Hair”达顿一家坚定地踏进狂野西部，Elsa重新打量自然的真相和人的残酷。

The best way to know if land is truly undiscovered is to seek words to describe it. When you can’t, you know it’s virgin land. Untouched by our dirty hands. To see it is to be silenced by it. Made speechless by its endless uniformity… One must read the sun and stars like a sailor to navigate this place. We’ve seen nothing but grass for over a week. No grass, no birds. No snakes. Not even a lizard. And no evidence the human race still exists. But the plains are littered with bones.The dirty man of hand can go unnoticed in a city. because his dirty hand made the city. But in this place, where innocence is a mineral in the soil, the filth of our touch is an apocalypse.玛格丽格-达顿不得不杀死一个偷马贼，Elsa得以通过母亲的眼睛体会恐怖。

She wouldn’t speak when she got back to camp. Wouldn’t look at my father. Wouldn’t look at me. I heard her crying by the fire before dawn. I sat beside her and asked her what was wrong. She said she killed a man over a horse, and now John was the only hope our family has of reaching heaven.I didn’t have the heart to tell her there’s not heaven to go to. Because we’re in it already. We’re in hell, too. They coexist right beside each other. And God is the land.Episode 8, “The Weep of Surrender”Elsa与Sam定下牢不可破的誓约，对这个年轻的女孩来说，什么都没有自由驰骋更为重要。

This is our third day here, the longest we’ve stayed in one place since the journey started. One trait all animals share, people included, is no matter where we are or where we wish to be, if we’re there longer than a day, we try to make a home of it. But the plains are not for home building. Not enough resources. No shelter. The plains are for vagabonds, wanderers, and cowboys. Their home is a saddle. The sky is their roof. The ground is their bed. What’s lacked in material comfort is regained in the knowledge that they are always home. To them, the journey is the destination.Should they find gold at the end of the rainbow, they would leave it there and seek another; choosing freedom over the burden of the pot. I haven’t thought once of Oregon. No dreams of the ocean or snow-covered mountains. I only dream of the journey. That is all. No gold for me. Just the rainbow.To import the traditions of the place you fled, the place that failed you, is to condemn the place you seek to the same failures.I understood my mother’s worry. My choices made no sense in her world, where customs and prejudice rule where law cannot reach. There will be customs and prejudice here, too, I’m sure. But they were born of this world, and belong here. To import the traditions of the place you fled, the place that failed you, is to condemn the place you seek to the same failures.因为对家人的爱，Elsa对Sam短暂告别，虽然心也在痛，但这次告别不像对Ennis那样永无再见之日，花开时再见。

I felt their eyes move over me. Felt their pity and disapproval. And it meant nothing to me. The only thing that mattered was riding away. Just as I was riding away from him. As I pondered the new journey before me – making it back to him – they watched the tears run my cheeks. And I let them. I didn’t turn my face or wipe them away. Tears became control. Sobs and weeps are little surrenders. And I will surrender nothing to the pain. Tears may flow, but I will not weep. I am the wife of a warrior now. Which is to say… I am a warrior. And warriors don’t cry.——不向痛苦缴械投降，战士永不哭泣。

Season 1, Episode 9, “Racing Clouds”I had convinced myself of the world’s ambivalence towards its inhabitants… Until I came to this place. This place doesn’t want inhabitants at all. Every plant is inedible. Every creek bed is dry. Though only September, snow covers the mountain peaks. Winter can’t wait to have at us. Can’t wait to join with the land and run us off or kill us. If land can have emotions, this land hates. It hates us. And everyone can feel it.Elsa被迫穿上了第一集中箭时的白裙子。

The dress felt like a prison built just for me, choking me by the neck and digging into my underarms. Flattening my breasts against my ribcage. It disguises everything that makes me a woman from the glares of jealous women and rapacious men; as if their lack of self-esteem and willpower should be my only concern. I will never live in that world again, where the weak would rather guilt the strong than become strong themselves. No, I will stay in this world. This world doesn’t care what the weak want. This world eats the weak.中箭后Elsa没有感到疼痛。

I felt no pain. Perhaps it was the fever of the fight. But it didn’t hurt. I thought of pushing it through. I thought better of it. As my father would say, ‘The one good thing about problems, is they’ll still be problems later. Don’t have to deal with them right away.That’s when I knew… I was going to die.她的父母尽可能让她有活着的感觉，詹姆斯给她的闪电上了鞍。

在马背上，Elsa说出了最有力的一次旁白。

I looked at my father, looked past his smile. Saw his worry. Saw something deeper. As if he were already in mourning. As if I were already gone. I felt different, too. Felt as though my soul had been dislodged from… Whatever cavern in our chest the soul is lodged to. It felt loose; disconnected. I looked out at the sagebrush, the colors looked different. Sharper. Looked up at the sky, the clouds seemed to race above us as if new laws applied to time and space above me.I looked back at my father, and I studied his eyes. Looked deep into them. That’s when I knew… I was going to die.终将死去，那又如何？

连星星都会陨落。

Season 1, Episode 10, “This Is Not Your Heaven”The numbing shock of war is behind me now. Pain has taken its place. Hurts to move. Hurts to breathe. The back of my head throbs with every step of my horse. I look at the world through the hazy lens of fever and somehow see it clearer.What is death? What is this thing we all share? Rabbits, birds, horses, trees. Everyone I love. And everyone who loves me. Even stars die. And we know absolutely nothing of it.Elsa也对两位牛仔Wade和Colton最后告别。

I wondered what became of them. Wondered if they staked their claim in Wyoming and built sod houses, bought cattle, and tried to scratch a life from this place. Perhaps they fought the winter and braved their way to Oregon; laying stakes in the emerald fields of the valley. But I’d seen too much of this world. Knew too much about the nature of man to think either would be their future. Another future awaited them, and it laid in the abyss of unmarked graves along the Oregon Trail.第二天早上，Elsa与父亲共骑一匹马。

他们在蒙大拿令人忘记呼吸的美景中谈论死亡。

“你看着我就像我即将死去一样。

”Elsa对父亲说。

他们注视着眼前这片土地，达顿一家和他们的后代将要栖居的天堂。

“我看着你，只看到本来的你：在这个星球上于我最重要的人。

我的目光里有焦虑，是因为你无可替代。

”詹姆斯对女儿说。

We never spoke of death or dreams again. We never spoke of the pioneers, either. Because there was no need… To survive the frontier, you must learn to recognize those who won’t, and be weary of their doomed decisions. They are to be avoided at all costs. Because their fear is tragedy’s closest cousin. And tragedy is contagious in this place.太阳再次升起，Elsa来到了她的天堂。

在那里，她和Sam重聚在说好的山谷，他们一起骑马，在无人荒径上渐渐走远。

极美。

There is a moment where your dreams and your memories merge together and form a perfect world. That is heaven. And each heaven is unique. It is the world of you. The land is filled with all you hold dear. And the sky is your imagination.My heaven is filled with good horses, open plains, wild cattle, and a man who loves me. It is always sunrise in my world. And there are no storms. I am the only lightning. I know death now. I’ve seen it. It had no fangs. It smiled at me. And it was beautiful.

自由有倒刺。

永远忘不了女主选择自由，选择爱他，义无反顾，像飞蛾扑火，而他死亡的那一刻，女主撕心裂肺。

我的眼泪流了下来。

“自由有倒刺，扎在了我手心，我看到了用我妈妈的视角看世界”第五集太赞了，一下子升华了这部剧。

忽然明白之前关于女主的所有铺垫。

一个单纯、阳光、向往希望与自由的人，怎么可以一下子接受这种悲伤，不是失去的悲伤，而是对这个世界的悲伤。

世界就是这样给我们上课的。

“世界不是为我们而创造的”。

“目之所及都失去了颜色”。

我明白我们的目之所及是怎么一点点改变的。

只愿我们出走半生，归来仍是少年。

看到很多"自由党"的短评真是气不打一出来，阴阳怪气，拿什么墙内墙外来显示自己的优越感，装什么高雅和睿智，有什么可装的？

人权和自由，什么是人权？

首先是生命权，没有生命谈什么"普世价值观"和" Freedom"?剧中那个老不死的警长明知此行凶多吉少，还收了所有人的钱带他们去所谓的自由之地，结果全TM在路上死了，要么被打死，要么被咬死，要不是黑人兄弟的特殊照顾，恐怕那个美女一家三口也难逃此劫，如果这也算奔向自由，这还真应了安吉丽娜朱莉的那句"他们虽然死了，但他们都自由了"。

😂如果您在国外端盘子洗碗享受着高人一等得待遇，那么我"恭喜"你，继续享受着，没必要拿出来臭显摆，有什么可装的。

不过我要告诉你，风水轮流转，此一时彼一时也，这个世界变化快着呢。

曾几何时，马可波罗开到中国，回国后告诉国人世界的东方遍地是黄金，当时也有很多人向往我们这里得生活，所以这个世界是在变化的，不急不急。

1883在我看来是超越黄石的，黄石更多的是权利的游戏的斗争，1883向我们呈现的是这个世界的真相以，这个世界就是一个残酷的炼狱，弱肉强食，适者生存，人类社会虽然已经经过了几千年的发展，科技日新月异，但人类仍然无法摆脱大自然给我们设定的天然属性，那就是人并没有超凡脱俗，人始终还是动物的一种，是这个世界食物链的顶端，但人还是没有摆脱这个宿命，人始终还只是一种动物，依然无法挣脱大自然给我们设定的生存法则，那就是适者生存，我们仍然对死亡和未知充满恐惧，却似乎永远无法摆脱，这才是导演在向我们传达的他的想法。

以前金政委说过，美剧就是好看，你在看美剧的同时就顺带被西方的价值观洗脑，以前我觉得金政委有点说大了，一个破电视剧有这么严重嘛？

现在看来还真的是洗脑，以前我也被洗过脑，我是看过美剧"末日孤舰"后才发现，这TM不就是西方版抗日神剧吗？

这不就是西方版主旋律红色剧嘛？

所以别跟我说什么西方民主自由，媒体自由，该报道的他们会异口同声，不符合他们利益的西方所有媒体都会整齐划一的闭嘴，所以说谁也别说谁，都是一票货色。

吐槽完了，再重回说1883，制作精良，演员优秀，风景优美，可以说每一帧都可以拿来当桌面，期待1932！

艾尔莎的形象很特别。

她幸而是投胎在达顿家，幸而是她父母的女儿，也只有这样的父母能养出这样的女儿，但不是一定能养出这样的女儿。

她有遗传，也有自己的成长。

太稀有了。

因为你躲不开世界。

你想穿科曼奇人的马裤和背心，世界会逼着你穿勒紧脖子的白裙。

我甚至想，和拉科塔人误会之战中，如果艾尔莎没有换上白裙，还是穿科曼奇人的衣服，说不定因悲痛而疯狂的拉科塔人会听她解释误会。

艾尔莎应该前世是西部草原上的骏马，天空里的山鹰，她的天赋和思想，不受束缚。

爱就爱了，可以“悲痛得像个寡妇”，没几天也可以在龙卷风中和刚认识的科曼奇人拥吻。

“我允许我自己嫁给他。

”“他救了我2次，救了你丈夫2次，为什么我要上帝的允许才能和他结婚？

上帝已经派他来了。

”当在随时生随时死的残酷世界中行走，生死像龙卷风，把所有束缚、规则、礼仪、习俗卷走。

留下人类最纯净的感情，不一定是“好的”感情，但一定最纯净：最决绝的爱，最疯狂的恨，最无所顾忌的杀意，最深切的悲痛…这种爱恨，它根本就不在乎你怎么评价。

它就冷酷地站在西部的天地之间，嘲笑任何人的任何指指点点。

艾尔莎看懂了这一点，学会了这一点，跟从了这种召唤，成长为和西部气质完全契合的人类。

她是不是那个，你连做梦都不敢想的，另一个你自己。